"No matter your station in life, we all have the ability to touch the heart of another and make a difference in someone's life"~~ Diane Linares

That was my Brian, and That is why I walk.  He was not expected to do anything in life, but he did more than most of us ever will... He struggled all his life to do the simplest things, but always had a smile on his face and forgiveness in his heart. That is why I walk.  Through his organ donations, he may some day have a family, he may go to college, he may comfort grand-kids or  share loving moments with a cherished wife. All these things, the daily events we all take for granted, he would never have, but through his gift of life, ...in some small way, through the spirit of his soul attached, softly, on his organs donated... he may have them all!    That is why I walk 

I walk, because I am proud of him, because I honor him, because he will never be forgotten and he is a hero, a shining star. He has left a legacy of courage, generosity, love and joy! That is why I walk, because this wonderful person was my son and I want the world to know he lived and did great things. That is why I walk.

With friends and family we will celebrate and remember him at our 3rd year Donate Life Run/Walk in Fullerton CA. on Saturday, April 27th.. send us good wishes for a good day.

I remember being told many years ago that the tears and ache in my chest would fade away with time after the death of a loved one. This person told me that he would try and recapture that feeling after time had passed from his fathers death and that when my mom died I should try to hold onto the feeling, for as long as I could. I understood what he meant when that feeling slowly faded as the years passed. When Brian passed that feeling, that choking closing feeling and the tears have lasted for 3 years now but they are not as often as the first 2 years and and while not a week goes by that tears are not shed, they are not as heavy or long lasting as before. As time moves forward they will continue to come less often and I can speak of him and remember him without having the choking ache in my chest. I understand that this is healing, but it is also a reminder that time keeps moving forward, that the lessening of the tears and the choking ache, are reminders for me that time and distance will come between my time with Brian and my time without him... I don't like time interfering...time was supposed to have stopped when Brian died, didn't the world get the message that things could not continue without his presence here!... Tears are not a weakness, they are powerful and necessary. Tears are healing and releasing; Tears help share a story to painful to speak aloud, and I thank GOD, so wise in giving to his people this ability to purge pain, to drain and clear the soul of sorrow, and empty the heart of darkness and doubt. These areas of course all fill back up again, but with each release, the build up again is not so overflowing and griping as time goes on... so I embrace my tears, and I let others see them, I want them to know that I lost my son and that I am hurting very deeply. I think it is my selfish indulgence, but I do feel I deserve to be selfish in my grief! And as time continues forward, I know I will say come back my tears, my loss is not over, come back my ache, the pain is still there. Thus is grief and as such my future alone without my son.

April is "Donate Life Month." How great it is to launch this website during this month. Although Brian was a donor, he was so much more. As I build this website and a Foundation or Non-Profit Business develops, proceeds will be donated in his name to many charity and organizations close to his life & legacy. I want to sponsor a Floralgraph in his name each year for the Donate Life Rose Parade, I want to establish, in his memory, a "Scholarship Award" for students at Speech and Language Development Center in Buena Park CA. I want to donate money to the "Hydrocephalus" research center, Children's Hospital in LA, the Easter Seal Program and others... This page is not just to cherish and remember my Brian but to honor his memory, his life, and to make a difference to someone with his gifts. It is what, I know he would want..... Smile everyone, this is a good day!